Again, thank you all for your kind words and support in this difficult time. Morgana is a beautiful girl with an emerging character of incredible gentleness considering the tribulation she has suffered. I look at her and she takes my breath away, as Merlin used to do. I am slowly gaining Morgana's confidence, and believe she and I will ultimately have a bond with each other that will perhaps equal that I shared with Merlin. It breaks my heart to think I will never again see his beautiful expressions on his gorgeous face, rammed into mine when I awake, but in time the memories will give me comfort. For now, each day is a struggle. A lot of time needs to pass before I will be able to speak, or even write his name, without feeling that chasm of loss and pain so deep inside my heart. I suppose that is the price we pay for sharing a true bond of love at the Bengal level. Merlin has left our life far too soon, and he has sent me what he believes I need to make me whole again. I will never forget him, and will treasure Morgana because he would want me to recover and one day be able to smile at our memories we shared.
I love you my baby boy. XXX MUMMY XXX
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