I was in and out of the house yesterday because I had so much to do, at one point when I gave Zebedee his food he sniffed it and walked off - completely uncharacteristic of him as he hadn't eaten all day (this was at 4 in the evening)..he kept looking up at me and meowing but I assumed he was just being extra vocal because he'd missed me and not eating because of the weather...After a few cuddles he went off outside and I left for the evening assuming he'd eat when he was hungry. I got home late last night - his food was untouched and his bed empty..he hasn't been back since. My OH and I slept really really badly last night, in fact, I didn't sleep - I kept waking up and checking if he'd returned. For some reason I had a gut instinct that he wouldn't be back by morning. I was right.
I've been out searching for him since 6 this morning. I've contacted my local rescue shelters and alerted neighbours but nobody's seen him since yesterday afternoon. I'm so sad. I feel extra guilty because I know I failed him, he was clearly unwell or atleast unhappy which is why he didn't eat and kept meowing yet because I was in such a rush to leave I assumed he'd be fine and still allowed him to go out. I can't stop fearing the worst..he seemed really lethargic and now I keep thinking he might be lying unwell somewhere, unable to come home, in pain, hungry and frightened. Even worse, in an accident.
I just don't know what to do. If he is lost, will he ever find his way back home. I'd rather know where and how he is, however painful the truth, than sit here not knowing anything at all. I just feel so so sad and empty without my baby.
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